L E F T

1:04AM
02 DEC 2017
SATURDAY
ROOM

Bismillah .

I was in dilemma .
What I did something wrong until this people hate me so much ?
Did I disturb other's life ?

Im thinking about leaving this place , but seriously it sounds stupid .
Because I just need to go through for 2 sem and then I will done .
Or maybe the other choice is to leaving the world by leaving in my own world .

Forget those peole .
Forget all the memories .
Just between me and my own memories .
No other people and no other people's memories with me .

Much better ? I guess ...
Im fucking tired with this .
WHAT THEY WANT ACTUALLY FROM MY LIFE !?
Somehow I think i just need some rest ...
Too much ..
WORKS ,
PROBLEMS ,
PEOPLES , 

to think of ...

I really need some rest ...
yes ,
some rest ...

will they miss me when im gone ?
will they still keep in touch with me ?
will they find me when im gone ?
what will their reaction when im gone ?
without telling anything ...

all these thought came into my mind when im choose to leave this place yet
i know no one care about that ...

ill ...

(( dream ))

- ayin -

C O N F E S S I O N

Bismillah ,


1:30AM , 25th of November 2017
Room .

I was thinking about something .
Something that kind of not important in my life but it really mean to me .
I just realize that i've changed a little bit .
But i dont know from which side that had changed .
I just feel empty lately , i dont know why ...

Too late ?
I guess not , i still have times .

I just dont understand .
The past keep haunting me .
And it keep happening .
I just need you with me ,
because its the only way i can forget about it .

Sometimes i think i strong enough to face this again .
But not all the times .
I realize that sometimes i need to let it go with cry .
Yet crying is the best healer instead of smiling .

Sometimes i just laying on my bed .
Overthinking starting in my head .
It comes too fast ,
And i just dont know why it must haunting me almost everytime im being alone .

At the end , i realize that Allah send me some people that understand me .
That always with me ,
That keep support me not matter what ,
That always want me happy ,
That always want to be with me everytime .
But im the one who didnt realize that existence .
Thankyou , love .

sincerely
yin

Nueva experiencia en un Nuevo lugar

12:06am

17 Oktober 2017

Tuesday .

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim .

Never know that this is kind of good way so far .
at the first , I thought it will be worst but actually its not .
found new friends , new things and more .

I realize that I already feel comfortable at this place .
eventhough there's still something that I cant forget and bare .
oh , and yeah the old things keep happening and its really hurts me sometimes .
but its okay , I can !

Well , my subjects that I learned was not too easy and not too hard .
I managed to do well for my courseworks and carrymarks so far ( yeay ! )
and yeah keep thinking about my final err
still dont have any idea for my final ( hope it will be fine )

S P E C I A L P E R S O N ?
I think I had one already .
but I dont want make it become real .
because Im sick of being played by someone that I love and care the most .
O Allah , please guide me :')

Oh and lastly, I already finish my first semester and still have 2 more semesters .
wish me all the best for next semesters .

S A Y O N A R A !

sincerely ,

yin 

N E W . J O U R N E Y

  back to the old day when we full of craziness

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back to the old days when we still childish and need some help to do anything

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back to the old day when we a little bit grown up

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back to the old day when we going for our first convoy

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back to the old day when we already become a senior and we need to take care our junior like our senior had done to us

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back to the old day when we had our first batch's potrait where it include girls too

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back to old day when we have our first meditation together 

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back to the old day when we had our last class's potrait

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back to the old day when we spend whole time together

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back to the old day when we already finish our big exam

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back to the old day when we captured our first and last gang's selfie

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Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
2351 hrs | 3/19/2017 | Sunday


i just cant believe the ending gonna be like this .
first of all , congratulation for your result ! be happy with what you get eventho not like what you expected to be but believe in Allah's works okay ? there's reason , remember ?

so , now we gonna face a real life which is no more people remind you to do any works , there's no more people will bla bla bla and bla aha cause its all by yourself now .

all i can say is prepare for the worst and enjoy your life okay ? its a NEW JOURNEY , maynnnn ! i just cant believe that we are not going to school anymore hahaha !
okay dah start mengarut / emoji flip hair /

goodluck dekat dunia luar ye rakan rakan sekalian . ye walaupun ada yang macam dah lost contact but idc , nanti dah masuk U jangan bermalas-malasan seperti di SAMTEN even result gempak sekalipun sebab dah berbeza dah surrounding dia .

okay , i already out of idea so yeah adios !

eh wait , its just a throwback entry actually and yeah adios again ! aha